I hate that I feel like I can’t be myself all the time. I feel like I have to be so many different people. I’m one person at work and with friends and another person at home. Even my online life is screwed up. I can’t post what I want or really how I feel on fb or Instagram. Too many people from different aspects of my life that will ask questions or be judgemental. Some will run to my husband. We have enough problems that I don’t have the balls to deal with.
This is why I have this blog. Unfortunately, I have a hard time putting my feelings into words. I stay such an emotional mess.
I’m tired of playing different parts. I’m tired of subduing my personality. I just want to be me. I want to be happy. I want to be able to express myself. I wish I had the balls to make a change. Wish I could take the first step. 😔